My crazy life.

Hello everyone!! Sorry I have fallen off the charts as of late cause things were getting so crazy and I felt like my head was gonna explode! :S I also think I kinda lost track of what I was trying to do, and I was straying away from I wanted my blog to be... so on that note I promise to do my best from now on and update more often and about important stuff!!! :D Ok so as you all probably know by now Egypt has been having some issues.... Big ones, for a while there it was pretty scary and I'm glad that the light has come to some extent back on the people and their country. But their attractions have created a domino affect on all the surrounding countries in that region. Governments and kings are getting alot of fire power from their people and it makes me think of the prophesies and how the last days will be coming here soon starting in those areas. Lets keep them in our prayers :)

Merry Christmas

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Remember God sent down his son to a mother’s womb,
When our world was cold and winter laid her wings on our hearts,
knowing he would be sent to a borrowed tomb,
and hoping we would do our part
knowing the king has come.
Let our spirit soar, knowing his love
Pray for our brothers to come home
Hope for peace, and the wishful dove
Sing of bright stars, sing of a church bell
Fear not the end, and praise the beginning
Let the spirit come into your heart to dwell
Do not fear if your world is spinning
Just remember the light in the heaven one cold clear night,
How your savior and king came here to earth
Embrace the world so white
And rejoice in his humble birth.

~Yours truly

Glitter And Satin Covered Fairy Tales

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors
Oh, and life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even gray, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time

And I'll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I've never known the loving of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand

There's a boy here in town, says he'll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time

So put on your best, boys, and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singing
Funny, when you're dead how people start listening

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time
So put on your best, boys
And I'll wear my pearls
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~If I Die Young- The Band Perry

I absolutely love this song, the lyrics are so powerful and hold lots of meaning, I really love this quote

"Funny, when your dead how people start listening"

So true, something I think we need to think about, why should we wait for someone to pass on before we start listening? Why should we wait for something as final as death before we give someone a chance to make a difference. This world isn't fair, and was never meant to be but I think we should try to make it as much as possible, thats the whole reason we're here. To do our best, and to help everyone do that too....

Another song that I have discovered lately is Glitter In The Air By P!nk. I have to say, this Rock Diva has her moments but she is a truly talented musician and was inspired by the Lyric Gods when she wrote this song! I highly recommend it for anyones ipod but, get the version of her singing it live at the Grammy's... all I can say, it is absolutely stunning! and It is my # 1 fav!

Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Closed your eyes and trusted, just trusted
Have you ever thrown a fistful of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face
And said "I just don’t care"

It’s only half past the point of no return
The tip of the iceberg
The sun before the burn
The thunder before the lightning
The breath before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?

Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
Your whole life waiting on the ring to prove you’re not alone
Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?

It’s only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table
The walk before the run
The breath before the kiss
And the fear before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?

La la la la la la la la

There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee
Calling me sugar
You called me sugar

Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight?
Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself
Will it ever get better than tonight?
Tonight

~Glitter In The Air - P!nk




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Feeling alone.... Ain’t funny how it can change you’re mind
how can I tell you... what you mean to me
I know, I know, its just like a fairy tale... But they say its stupid and never real
Yeah I know

I’m looking for a way to fit in, please don’t runaway... oh how can I possibly hurt this much?
To be this close yet so far away....
How does it feel to be so beautiful?
I would give it all away to see you coming my way, to be the one you noticed
you’re like the sun on a cloudy day, an angels song in the night, that’s my fairy tale of you...

We always used to talk about how when you left it would be different, but we would change it...
but then it really did
I never got to tell you how it really was, with my feelings towards you...
But I couldn’t tell then, all I could do was cry in front of you, those words my heart couldn’t say, those words concerning you...
oh....those words concerning you....

Oh how I pray I can make it through the fall... and to see that fairy tale for real
I long for the moment I see you again, for my miracle... oh my miracle
my fairy tale, my fairy tale of you
I turned my perfect moment away, theres no going back...

Feeling alone.... Ain’t funny how it can change you’re mind
how can I tell you... what you mean to me
I know, I know, its just like a fairy tale... they say its stupid, never for real
yeah I know... I’ll just try.

~Fairy Tale Of You rough draft - Yours Truly

My Love Of Fall

I love the Season called fall... Everything about it. I love the Wind as it nips at your ears reminding you that jack frost will be coming soon so you better cover up. I love how the leaves turn bright gold and red, yellow and topaz. I love how all the animals start to puff up their fur to stay warm, I love Halloween, I love the costumes, the taste in the air as friends and families plane pranks and haunted houses. I love the mystery and the stories of ghosts, witches... especially the witches, as they cast their spells and stir their potions... yes I love that. I love it all.. and yet I didn't feel that this year. This year there was no gold, no mystery in the air, the taste of magic did not tingle on my lips. The world stayed green. there was no flurry of rich costumes and warm fuzzy kittens playing in the pile of topaz fire leaves on the lawn... I can't wait to see it again.

The Connection Between Depression And Creativity

While I am working on that other piece (which has truly become quiet the challenged to say the least) I have decided to post some my old essays from my 10th english class. I did alot of research papers dealing with psychology, Of which I found immensely interesting


Tessica Tripple
10th English
2-10-09
 
 
The connection between depression and creativity
 
Since the beginning of written human history, there has always been a need for people to express their thoughts, ideas and feelings though creative forms of communication such as music, painting, the performing arts and writing. There are the individuals who express themselves more than others, using these techniques. These individuals are extremely creative and are usually held in high esteem for their work, ideas and insight on life; these individuals are commonly known as artists.
  The human emotion span is very large and the reasons behind people’s emotional and mental reactions have fascinated the psychology world since the beginning of modern practices. One idea that is becoming more and more recognized is that there is link between creativity and depression.
  This idea first developed it was discovered was found that many artists throughout history had symptoms of depression or had been diagnosed with depression.
But how is this? Is creativity a side affect? Or does creativity lead to depression?

Recently, CNN did a report concerning questions like this after the great 20th century writer, David Foster Wallace, committed suicide September 12, 2008. There are several points in this report that I would like to use and emphasizes, points that are important when discussing this idea.        Dwelling on the same thoughts for extended period of time: this is a way of perfecting ideas, but obsessing over a thought can lead to more complex ideas and emotions. Concerns and problems also become bigger or more threatening in some cases. “It's pretty clear if you read Wallace's books that he was a very obsessive, kind of ruminating guy, you can see it in his sentences. ... They're breathless and they need to be annotated, and the annotations need to be annotated again." says Paul Verhaeghen, associate professor of psychology at Georgia Institute of Technology. Verhaeghen, also a novelist, describes himself as a “somewhat mood dissordered person”. "One of the things I do is think about something over and over and over again, and that's when I start writing," Verhaeghen explained.
Another point that I myself feel is very important is, sensitivity. Being sensitive to their surroundings has been a quality that artists must either have or develop throughtout their career. But can a person become too sensitive? Accourding to Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi, professor of psychology and management at Claremont Graduate University in Claremont, California,
the answer is yes. “Such hypersensitivity can lead people to worry about things that other people don't worry about as much,” Csikszentmihalyi states, “and [that] can lead to depression.The arts are more dangerous [than other professions] because they require sensitivity to a large extent," he says. "If you go too far you can pay a price -- you can be too sensitive to live in this world." Becoming too sensitive to surroundings can easily affect a person’s mood. Colors, lights, sounds, the emotions of others, can lead to a loss of ones own emotion control.
And lastly, internal analyzing also helps develop depression. Self critique quickly becomes negative, and when it is added to all of the above, becomes a potentially dangerous concoction.
The idea of a link between depression and creativity has the “the chicken or the egg” question, and many experts have statistics that back up both points of view, but I personally, after studying both sides of this much debated question, have come to believe that creativity can help lead to depression.

Links and sources http://www.cnn.com/2008/HEALTH/conditions/10/07/creativity.depression/index.html
Myers, David G. (Ed.). (1995). Psychology. New York, NY: Worth Publishers.

This is an unfinished piece that I was working on for an english assignment There is so much I want to do on it now, but I thought I would do a before and after thing of it, let me know what you think!


Now is the time that one of man kinds sins be looked upon and over come. This problem has been present since the beginning of human society and has lead to issues that could have been avoided. This sin We refer to as is commonly known as social
classes, but we will go deeper to say its not the social classes themselves, it is the feeling of pride over another, over looking the clear undeniable fact that we are all humans, all people under one God and sharing one earth. money, possessions and
blood make us who we are, this is the mentality that commonly accompanies the higher class.
Here in america we have a very sharp defined social ladder, the steps are easy to climb and there are not as many obstacles but the difference is easy to see. As a nation we say all men are created equal, but many of its wealthier citizens have forgotten this.
Their feelings toward their fellow men in lower circumstances are negative and can be seen thru their actions. We wish to stay away from stereotyping this class, there are class members that show great feelings of respect for their neighbors, but sadly they are over shadowed by harsh. Money does not change the clear undeniable fact that we are human, and respect should not be affected by this. Lower class work as a way to provide for themselves and their families, and their work often consists of providing for the high classes.

(please keep in mind that this is not done!!!)